Hey to you all!!! I got inspired to write the following post because of something that my daughter said to me (leave it to my 11 year old to make me question life). After thinking about it for awhile I decided to take it to God, because lets face it if I don’t take it all to Him, I end up a HUGE mess.
The other day Lanna said “mom, why do you have to have everything perfect?” Now at first I kind of felt bad. I mean here is my 11 year old questioning why her mom has such issues. Why is that we never leave the house a mess. Why does every single room have to be picked up. Why does all the laundry have to be done and not one dish in the sink. Why do her and her brother have to look presentable and behave with manners…..etc. I mean I could see her struggle. I could understand that she just wanted to run around filthy with dirty clothes and just throw things wherever she wanted because well ,hey why not. I started to feel guilty that my issues with cleanliness and appearance were making my kids miss out on life. And then just when I was sure I was failing as a mother and wife, God showed me the truth.
You see I am always doing things with my kids. Always. We have spontaneous water gun fights. We have random days of picnics, bug hunting, dirt dragging days. We have constant adventure and laughter. We have popcorn fights, play do making, canvas drawing days. We have days that are quiet and we have days that are loud. And all this days are filled with pure joy for all of us. So no I realized that my kids aren’t missing out on anything.
I get up 3 hours before my kids every morning to make sure that everything that needs to be done in the house is done before their sleepy heads wake for the day. I make sure that I don’t have laundry piles on the floor so they can spread out their legos and art projects. I make sure that the dishes are always clean so that they can have breakfast, lunch and dinner and snacks without searching the kitchen for dishes. I make sure that the rooms and closets are organized so that they can find all the toys they need to be as creative as they want. You see my root for perfection is my love for my family.
It hit me like a ton of bricks, what God had said to me. He let me know that the reason why I strive for perfection, even though I know its unattainable is because I am completely and without a doubt in love with my LIFE. I am smitten with my husband so of course I want to be the best supportive wife I can be. I adore my children, so of course I want to be the most involved loving mother I can be. I am in awe of the beautiful home my husband and I are creating so of course I want to be keep it clean and organized at all times.
After reflecting on my daughters question “why does everything have to be perfect?” The answer is it doesn’t have to be perfect, but I want to make sure that I give one hundred percent to every aspect of my life. I am grateful beyond words to God for giving me this life and I want to give Him my absolute best.
Thank you for reading!
Love, XoXo Julia